Besides how could I not post it. I know having children isn't for everyone. But for me it was a big deal, and even now its my most lasting and strongest hold in life, so many other connections are temporary and tenuous. There are days where the only thing that keeps me from packing a bag and jumping in the car and just saying "Fuck this shit!" is I can't leave behind my boys.
This world is a hard place to be alone, and love it or hate it, when you're a parent you're never really alone. Even if you're a continent away they never really leave your head. Yep, today is one of those days where I'm glad I have a reason to stay. Too much hurt and pain and betrayal in the world around us. Hope I can give my children a chance to find happiness in their future. Sorry, seems beauty and hope can have a tinge of sadness too.